FML , feels like crying

"why on earth you dah jadi mcm ni" I want to die la. teacher told me that I got the 17th position in the class. I am so suprised, terkejut nak mati but im not sad. cos i like num 17. 17 is my born date. psycho, I know. I told my mom. die membebel smpai skrg. Telinga sgt panas. she keep on scolding me, ckp this all because byk sgt problem. gduh sini sana. Yes, I never get bad result mcm nie. since I was standard 6. Im the one who malas nak belajar. sgt tertekan akhir2 nie. everything changed in my life okay. i need to get use with it. I need time. FML okay :((