new spot light in my life

SYAHADAH AZIZ

die rakan baru aku.

kteorg kenal kat MS dulu, dah lama.

tp tak pena ckp un.

bru2 nie,

die tuisyen nan aku.

so kteorg dah mcm boleh sembang lah.

die segila aku.

mlm td die yg buat aku gelak mcm nak pecah perut dan nak matii.

HAHAHAHA.

thanks adah.

aku dah tak fikir pasal masalah aku.

" kao mmg cibai, okay. melawak je keje"

ayat yg paling mcm hawaw aku kena nan die.

zetty un ada membantu aku happy ;DD

IMISSYOU, BABE!!

SK (P) METHODIST 2, MELAKA

6 BESTARI 2007

Ituu masa darjah 6. second class la. tak yah kutuk ;D

Jam 06.19 p.m, waktu melaka mengikut jam aku. ehhe.

Aqilah :hello boleh ckp dgn atira zainal.

Thira : sory die tgh berak. kang mggu dpn call balik.

Aqilah : hmm okey, tima kasih makcik.

Thira : kpala hotak nenek kao. aku tira la, kao spe?

Aqilah : huh? heh? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Thira : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Aqilah : aku qila lah. pakwe lama kao.

Thira : ahhhhhhh!! aqilah khairiah ank khalib the jeng jeng heh? ahhhhh!!

Aqilah : ha'ah. tp jeng jeng tu bkn eh. kao nie tak ubah2 kan. gler kao yg tahap kritikal mcm mak cik gler kat mgs dulu.

Thira : HAHAHAHA. hello babe. nie aku lah tira yg lama.

Aqilah : oh yeah yg tergiler2 kat MSBF tu kan.

Thira : ish kao igt lg? terharu aku. HAHAHAHA. so cmne KL? BEST? rmai kwn bru?

Aqilah : best gler, tp tu la kalo kao nan nadiah ada. pergh dunia aku yg punya.

Thira : citer nak gebang lbh2 kan?

Aqilah : ehhehehe. asal aku call fon tak angkat? lama mmg sah dah tak de. mana number lame? bru je aku mintak membe lama kte num kao. un tk dpt.

Thira : ohh. ehhe. lama nya. well sapa tak kenal aku. hilang dah. bru nya aku off kan. sbb ada fon buat masalah jela.

Aqilah :asal nie woi. gaduh heh?

Thira : hmmm. betul la tu kottt. kot jela.

Aqilah : citer la. bnyi mcm kao putus asa je. ckp napa. aku knl kao dah 5 tahun lah. kao tak kan gduh kalo kao tak salah, dan takde org cari pasal.

Thiera : tak. kali nie aku salah gak. malas la nak citer. pe hal kao call aku heh tb2?

Aqilah : metukar topik nmpknya. takpe firstly, aku nak ckp aku rindu kao sengal. 2nd, kao igt tak janji kte nak buat reunion lepas SPM? aku balik hujung tahun nie, so aku nak kte suma kuar sme2. so kte leh tukar story kte.

Thiera : oh igt2. oke aku no hal. oke, lepas PMR sett lah. ergh sengal.

Aqilah : eh tu bkn trademark kite msa darjah 6 ke? erghhhh SENGAL.

Thira : igt kao kan. aku saje je sebut. aku dah tak guna trade mark tu dah. tp logo persahabatan kte aku still gne.

Aqilah : ehhe terharu aku tao. tgk lah sapa reka logo tu kan?

Thira : minta maaf yerk. aku juga memberi pandangan yg bernas oke. hahaha.

Aqilah : ehhe. kao lak sengal, aku tipu lah.

Thira : aku un tak pastii lah aku sengal ke tak? kuiuikui. oke2, nnti lah calling, mak aku dah mencotcot dah.

Aqilah : hish amylia nie aw. kaco kte nak dating.

Thira : woi, amyza la ngap ngep ngop. nak juga kena makian ablasa aku an?

Aqilah : garang akak kte still sama lah. sengal la kao. oke2, bye nnt on la fon kao. save num aku aw darlinggggggg tercinta ku. aku rindu dgn kegilaan kao tao. pasal masalah kao tu, kao lupakan je. kao dulu bole dpt 5A, sure kao leh dpt kputusan terbaik dari ladang la untk PMR. aku knl kao weh, kita dah mcm tahi dgn bontot, slg memahami. ahhhaha. kao kuat punya org, aku tao. yg plg best kao nie fhm perasaan org. so guna klbihan kao k ;D bye

Thira : oke2 cipanzi terhebat kuuuuu. syg kao la. aku un rindu kao la ngek. pape yg pasal reunion tu bgtao k. tappppppppii yeke? org komplain aku selfish.

Aqilah : weh, aku kenal kao lebih la dari org yg mengemol ckp kao selfish tula. kwn nan kao bole buat org senyum je tao.

Thiera : dah la. citer kao nak gebang je aw sengal maun. bye bye bye. I love you

Aqilah : oke bye. syg kao.

IMAGINE HOW HAPPY I AM. My best dude called me after almost 3 years tak jmpe && ckp? perasaan aku yg tak sedap, otak pening boleh lega skjapan aw. I love her so much. kteorg tak pena tipu antara stu sama lain. kalo tak suke, terus ckp. that's the best abt her.

Tired living my life with troubles.

Tolonggggggggggggggggggggggg lah.

Jgn hasut aku untuk teruskan pergaduhan ini.

aku dah kata aku berundur, aku mmg retreat, aku give up.

biar la dieorg nak buat apa dieorg nak.

maki aku, kutuk aku, guna ayat yg melogokan aku pompuan sundal or wtv.

kalo kao nak aku tegakkan kebenaran,

aku boleh buat, tp aku perlukan masa,

dlm masa yg sama aku akn stress, geram dan jd lebih bencii kat kwn2 aku bila dpt tao perkara sbnr.

tu ke apa yg korang nak?

bila aku teruskan, korang asik2 tnya bila nak bebaik nan dieorg.

bila aku dah give up, korg suruh aku tegakkan.

korang tak nampak ke? muka aku dah berkedut seribu?

kejap marah, kejap senyum, kejam ketawa kuat2, kejap nanges.

mcm org giler aw. pelajaran aku un dah terganggu. ckgu dah byk kali tegur aku.

sbaik bkn dlm kelas ckgu tegur. ckgu siap kata muka aku dah ada garisan.

segan tao tak? tahun nie impian terbesar aku bkn nak gaduh bkn nak ada best friends,

tp impian aku nak dpt keputusan terbaik dan cpt2 pindah skola.

aku nak lupakan hal nie akhir bulan nie, iaitu esk 28Feb2010.

fhm? so stop it!! thank you ;)

smlm malam.

I dont know what time I slept yesterday,

but im really sad, I dreamt of my grandmother,

"she asked me not to make his son sad.

she scolded me for what had happened.

she said, what I have done yesterday is true, cos it serve me backk,

she said theres no on earth a friend that wants us to be happy.

termasuk me. sedih dgr.

she said your friends telling my secret when I am right,

they finding people to hate me,

she said, why why must I told my other friend your problem?

you should tell my son ,

if you wanted to transfer, it makes him sad.

cos this whole life, you never as weak as this.

friends come and go, anytime.

you are a stubburn, high ego, always want to win, and want people to scared you

this time i understand the purpose you giving up for ur SRP.

you are the one who scolded them cos u cant control your syaitan anger,

so you cant blame them for lying to everyone abt you,

they hate you for the wrong thing.

you love the person that never believe you,

cause you always deny you feeling, that means you are coward

tira dont think negative abt him,

just believe what you think is right.

you also yell him kan? so why cant he yell on you back.

serve you back. you are wrong between you both.

forget your problems, you can have friends but dont close with them,

show ur SRP result. then you can transfer. dont you ever ask abt transfering to my son.

she smiled. "

why nenek also same, i know im wrong, you keep telling me the same thing pasal my perangai. that's me kan? nenek tao, im a person who love sgt nan kawan, I cant only be friends, automatik akan jd rapat. tira akan try tak kan buat papa sedih. tira nak pindah sbb tira nak fokus pd pljran, bukan lari dari masalah.nenek pun salah kan tira, oke tira dah kata dah ini salah tira. tira tertekan dgn masalah, tu tira citer kat kwn tira tu. tp asal nenek tak sebut nama dieorg. nenek mksudkn sapa sbnrnya nie. tira dah janji nak lupakan, tira msih suka die, malo tira rasa mcm kehormatan tira mcm da takde lepas die tulis. tlg nenek kalo nenek baca la isi hati tira ni. tlg la tira syg kwn2 tira, terutama miera.

And you are another thing. What’s fucking wrong with you?! You know what, you’re the one who broughtthis shit up. I was about to get along with him. Why? Why the fuck did you do this? We were just okay, weren’t we? Then why did you do this? Why the hell did you say that I said you were a cheap bitch? Why? Is that really you? Are you really a cheap bitch? DO tell me. And have some pity on T_____. I don’t think she’s got anything to do with this shit. It’s just because of your jealousy of us in the past. And now you’re involving D_____, Why? I don’t know what your problem with them is. But I think I do know. But why must you tell them off harshly? If I were in their shoes, I’d have told you off back. But they didn’t. It is because they still have respect for you, ‘cause they still accept you as their friend and they still love you. I’ve heard so much from T_____ by the time I hung out at hers, and from that I know that she’d still accept you as her friend. She still loves you. And I really don’t get it when you’ve to break your friendship with them when we broke the shit up. Really, I don’t get it. From what I heard, you’ve to take that because it’s a way for you to get over me. I think that really is ridiculous. And I don’t know if it was true that I heard you were with me because you wanted to get over H_____. And now you’ve to find someone who can make you get over me. What the hell do you think is this? “TARI TIRANA”, that Tirana had to find someone who can make her forget about Ash? Oh yeah, your name is almost the same. And the other day, T_____ and M_____ told me that you also had feelings for F_____, but at times those feelings went towards me. What are you? What were your feelings? Damn, I don’t get it. And that night, 12.09 am, 21^st Feb 2010, you sent a message “Yes, ROHAIZAD, I am a ‘CHEAP BITCH’ if you say so.” I don’t know what your problem was. C’mon girl, you’ve got to open up your mind. Think! And I don’t understand what you were ridiculing in this message “I’m wondering how far your maturity was. Okay, if you say so, I’m immature. It was so unbelievable you said that. If you’re in my position, you’ll only know how it feels like. Yes, I know your answer, ‘you know ‘cause you’re so matured.’ Thanks. Bye.” This is what you typed in your message. What the hell was that? Then I don’t know what you told your so-called “Sugar Daddy”, S_____. Either you told him I “meant” you were a cheap bitch or something else. When he butted in, everything became a ruin. It became hugely huge. There are only two (2) questions in my mind, who is the major asshole in this shit? Who brought this damned shit up?

please kasi aku gelak dulu. HAAHAHAHA. aku tak tao nape aku tbe2 jadi takde perasaan.

firstly aku nak bgtao kao, correction oke, aku mmg pena suka kat fauzan masa aku darjah 3. dan sbbkan itu aku dan die tak berteguran smpai first day school last year. then biasa lah cik nur athira kita, suka nafikan perasaan bila org tnya betul aku suka kao? aku jwb tak. aku suka ayammm. wtv. then sejak bila aku gf kao? kao kata dulu couple is not the key to be together. so kte hnya kwn yg share perasaan cmtu. aku suka suki kat kao sejak dari pertama aku kenal kao. tp mcm ada takde jela. sbb aku suka haqim mse tu. tak selepas kao ckp perasaan tu kat aku. aku hnya berlakon still suka kat haqim. yes, dah berapa bnyak kali dah aku bgtao kwn2 aku, punca aku gdoh nan teha, sbb perasaan cemburu yg tak dpt dikawal. ohh my god. shahiff? he's my friend. and i appreciate him. that's all. fauzan? we are always friend. tak lebih. aku kan dah tersuka kao. die syg teha malik. and I never kacau dieorg. cos tu nama nya pengkhianat dalam selimut. aku sentiasa jaga jarak nan die. sbb kalo kao nak tao la. pompuan nie, cpt jealous bila syg kat org tu. aku ttakut teha cemburu then gaduh nan die. mcm aku skrg nie. tp kelakar tao bila igt ayat "cheap bitch". bole setiap hari aku sebut ayt tu lepas kao letak kat status tu. kao ngaku jela ayat tu dedicated tuk aku. sbb aku un pena buat cmtu. tp tak bermksud pun.

25th Febuary 2010.

oh my god.

lutfi cant stop maluu kan me. stop it girl2.

HAHAHAHA.

Lutfi

asl ko mintak maaf secara terbuka?

lau aq malu siot

5:37pmThiera

sbb aku marah dieorg depan org ramai

lg un aku td stress giler.

byk masalh

tu aku putus asa then aku minta maaf jela

5:37pmLutfi

o

diaowg maafkan kew?

5:40pmThiera

nasib la.

tp td giler lepas tension la.

5:40pmLutfi

o

apa faktor korg gdh?

5:42pmThiera

panjang giler la citer.

kao rasa td aku ckp minta maaf tu patut ke?

5:43pmLutfi

patut dan wajar

kita umat islam perlu minta maaf

sedangkan nabi muhammad ampun kn dosa umatnya

5:48pmThiera

tp ada satu hal lg.

and that is dgn ejad.

5:48pmLutfi

minta maaf jew

5:49pmThiera

die dah maki2 aku myspace.

cuba kao baca.

tah la aku nie berperasaan tak.

sbb aku risau tp tergelak2 bila bce.

5:50pmLutfi

seorang tu akn terima maafan drpd owg lain...caye la

sbb seseorang tu ada ati yg lembut

5:51pmThiera

yela. tp aku menyesal sbb aku marah dieorg. aku patut kawal marah aku.

5:52pmLutfi

marah tu la syaitan yg hasut

terbukti la kita umat yg lmh

5:53pmThiera

eceh, asal kao alim giler semacam nie?

5:53pmLutfi

sbb aq bru lps solat

5:53pmThiera

ohh. BHAHAHAHA

ohhhhhhhh man. I dont believe wht I have done. aku minta maaf depan satu kelas. mmg malu la. gler kalo tak malu. aku tercengak kat depan kelas, aku suruh dieorg senyap then suma pandang aku. aku terdiam, jantung aku dup dap laju gler. then dgn ego aku. aku buat gak sbb aku tension masa tu.biila aku ckp sorry kat teha miera, aku kena boo. HAHAHAHAHA. kebetulan lepas tu ckgu msuk, good.

then minta kbenaran nak gi kelas 5B. so aku minta maaf kat kak miera hamer, tp mse tu terigt nak ckp sorry kat ejad. tp gagal. aku takleh luahkannya. sbb aku masih kat die lg. tp masa rehat dieorg, lepas jmpa kak amiera, aku gi cari ejad. tp tak jmpe. punya tnya org tp tk dpt. so i decide to msuk kelas. sbaik ckgu tak marah. balik aku tggu la die, tggu kwn2 die pegi. tp lama gler, so then I give up.

aku gi jmpe kembar td. aku slow talk nan die. then kiteorg oke dah. konklusi, lepas aku minta maaf kat dieorg, aku rasa beban aku dah takde. AKU BOLEH BELAJAR CM BIASA. yg ejad tu, aku dah selalu mcm tu nan die. kteorg baik atao gaduh same je. tetap tak ckp antara satu sama lain.aku redha je.

22nd FEBUARY 2010

td ada study group konon.

Man, 222days more for PMR. Mcm tak caya ahh.

Hajar : tira kao pasti ke nak teruskan mcm nie je.

*mata-mata melihat aku yg sedang korek idung. ahha gelakkkkk

Thiera : blurp blurp *bunyi ikan.hahahah. hmm apa kao ngaban tgh hari buta nie.

Hajar : eh aku tak bergurau eh, kao lupa janji kita (aku, hajar, dynah, teha, miera) ?

Thiera : yg mana eh?

Hajar : THIERA!!! yg "forget the past, cheerish the future". walo kao dah tak baik nan dieorg?

Thiera : *diam buat seketika. aku igt lg lah. Janji mana leh lupa cmtu je an?

Hajar : apa kata kao baik je semula nan dieorg termasuk si R ko tu demi PMR. kang lepas PMR, gaduh balik.

Thiera : *BHAHAHA. siak er kao. tp aku mmg terfikir un. tp tu la, bila terigt ayat "cheap bitch" tu balik. aku mcm susah nak lupa. dgn hal kembar td, aku gi ckp nan akak die un tah buat pe. dgn tooooooot tu lg.

Diyanah : tira tak nak gaduh2 dgn spe2 la taun nie. kata janji. tp si keluarga kembar mmg mcm ****. haahaha

thiera : aku mmg dah terfikir nak lupakan je suma nie. tgk mcm td, aku takde focus kat PMP langsung. bg aku fikir dulu leh? ckgu sim un nak jmpe akak die esk. ejad tu, insyaAllah aku bole maafkan die. sbb aku un pena buat mcm tu, tp takde maksud kan org tu un. saje je gimik gna ayat kasar. teha nan dieyla, hmmmmmm. PEGI MATI.

Hajar & Dynah : THIRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thiera : BHAAHAHA. yela. aku tak gurao. aku marah sehari je. yg lain saja buat gimik mcm angin. dah belajar bkn ckp pasal masalah aku lah. ngoishhhh :D

Td study group aku un bkn study on. otak layang sana sini. "forget the past, cheerish the future" aku tak kan nak pecah janji nie, sbb aku yg buat janji nie. oke, I PROMISE :

----->Hal kembar, tgk jela apa yg akan berlaku. sbb td mmg aku buat silap dah tersound akak die. sbb takleh tahan marah.

-----> Teha and dieyla : aku berat hati la sikit. tp yelaaaaaaaaaaa. no igt2 kisah dah terjadi.

-----> ROHAIZAD HUSIN tu. ahha. lupakan aje. aku un pena buat cmtu, tp takde lah sekasar ayat die guna. tp die ckp die tak mksudkn aku. siap ckp aku tak matang hahahaha. kelakar bila igt balik.

persoalannya, cmne dan apa aku nak buat agar nmpk aku dah oke nan dieorg?

keep holding

1st day of schooling after CNY.

man, teruk ah.

but not after 9.00 a.m.

ohhh. my giler had back.

then 9.40 science period,

gosh, oke kiteorg dah msuk chapter 4.

ahha. takde pape best pon.

tp tu la, chapter nie len sikit.

dimulakan suara kerbau ketawa.

disudahi dengan rasa tak sabar nak tggu next period.

oke, abt the problems.

Tak usah dibesarkan.

lantak lah jela

----> si kembar nak fitnah mcm2.

----> teha and dieyla memburukkan aku

----> ejad kata aku "cheap bitch" = best juga ayatnya.

GOSH, td kat skola mengantuk tahap kritikal lah.

ada smpai gi toilet tido jap.

tak pena aku buat.

yela smlm tak cukup tido.

kan keluar belah ibu sembhyg tikong.

then main letup2.

ahha.

HELL-O

YES. Tell you what, ROHAIZAD HUSIN

i still cant over it.

and never can over it.

PUASSS?

I thought you said at first time you tell me your feeling,

I told you that "kao tak kenal aku lg, jgn menyesal kang"

Then you said, I know you and that made you have that kinda feeling toward me.

and now HELL-O,

you are yelling and scolding me at my back.

believe others than me.

selama nie teha and miera were pretanding,

sbb aku yg suruh.

sbb aku tak nak kehilangan kao

tp malang aku jadi cemburu lak.

sbb teha amek kesempatan,

dan itu yg bbuat aku gaduh dengan die dulu.

tp apa, die mcm tak kesa je gaduh nan aku,

aku gak cakap dgn die

ada pernah kao tnya napa aku gadoh dengan die?

tak perna, sbb aku tao kao anggap nie suma sbb perangai aku.

oke fine

ramai ada kata kao guy, ada pernah aku kata kao guy.

aku perna ragu masa tu bru start kita rapat.

lme2, aku kwn nan kao, aku percaya kao tak.

do I ever said you gay?

then why you call me bitch.

tak kesa lah kao tak nak ngaku,

i believe kao maksud kan aku. kalo tak sapa lg?

I maybe still have this kind of feeling towards you,

but im sure one day it will fade away when I gone.

and my promise is,

if only i got a really good result, at least 6a's

i'll go forever.

why must be me again?

Just if you be at my shoes,

what do you feel if someone make a promise

and easily broke it without telling you.

what would you feel then? doing something you dont even wish to do that so.

im crying one night only thinking abt it that night on the 1st feb.

and we fought at the 2nd feb.

i dont think so you still remember the date we fight, even when we happy.

that day we fight, we are having geo paper, you know what,

tak tao lah kao reliese ke tak,

I gone out for 20 minute,

i went to surau, and crying.

now you storing to others abt me.

YESSSSSSSSS!! WHATEVER. im a setan that only friend with setan.

'cause I yell on you, my own ex-bestfriend.

you like an angel.

last word for you

"you dont know me yet and never"

that makes me more in pain cause,

you said we're best friend, but what?

2008 and currently

masa 2008. muka mintak kaki je.

oke skrag mcm nie la. badget shial**

admire this girl so much. i knew her since i was 12.

follow all her current issues.

she doesn't know me pon.

ehhe. click the pic for clearer view.

she's so adorable, clever, sporting one.

dush.